I hate my job...

Wow, it really been almost a year since I posted in here?!? Heh...
Gaia's really taken over my life lol

I don't really like my job. I like the pay & the ability to have to only work part time, but the job itself pretty much blows. Right now, I'm sitting in the library playing on the computer & listening to music. However, I've got all this anxiety about how I wanna be doing something ~ Keeping busy makes the time pass & means I get to go home sooner lol. I dunno...I've just been quite a bit miserable lately, & I don't really know what to do about it.

I have to go to the res after work tonight too. I figured it would be good to go on a Sunday since the thruway won't be busy; but then I realized it's Memorial Day weekend, so the thruway is probably gonna be a lot busier than any normal Sunday. Which is going to give me an anxiety attack lol.

3 more hours til I leave here. Then I have tomorrow off ~ We're going to his mom's for food. Then I come in the next day & apologize to my head boss for flipping out around him the other day *sweat* ~ I really hope he doesn't ask if I like this job cuz I'm a pretty bad liar lol. Then I think I have 5 days off in a row. So, I guess it's worth it.
I really need to figure out what I want to be when I grow up so I can go to school & stop working such obnoxious jobs.

I'm bored & really sick of sitting on my ass. I'd rather be at home doing, well, the exact same thing...except with a cigarette in hand & the option of taking a nap available at any time lol
I'd go find something to do, but everyone else spends all weekend sitting in here, even when there's a bunch of stuff to do, so... :/ The last weekend I worked, I was so goddamn busy, but no one offered any help.. :(

OOH! I finally got a page!! Hopefully I won't be back later lol

Aaaaannnngrrrryyyy....!!

I have to work in less than an hour. It's only for 5 hours, but I have to do the cooler & all that bullshit. Then, I come home, take a shower, eat, & go to bed so I can get up at (I don't even know what time!) to go to this stupid new hire meeting that was mentioned to me only once, and that once was over 2 weeks ago. Then, after the meeting, I'll probably have an hour or 2 to relax before going back to work for 8 and 1/2 hours. After which I get to have dinner with Nick & then go to bed because I have to work at 8am the following day. I guess I'm not naturally cranky enough as it is (I just got my period today), so work has to kick my ass too. I don't even get to see my sweetie hardly at all this week. And I work 5 days in a row - my next day off isn't until Thursday!! >:(

GGGGGggggggggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What to do, what to do....

I really don't know what to do today. I got more than enough sleep last night on accident - I meant to take a nap & get up so I could do some yoga & shit & then spend time with Nick when he got home from work, but that didn't happen :( I got up at 10:30 this morning, spent some time online, cuddled Nick for a lil while, rode my bike to work to get my pay, and now here I am at almost 1 in the afternoon, pondering what the fuck I'm going to do with the rest of my day. I have to wake Nick up in a few minutes so he can go to work, so I'll be sitting here for a lil longer. But what will I do with the rest of my day?? We're expecting some isolated thunderstorms over the next few hours, according to weather.com, but I somehow doubt that they'll reach us here. Which is disappointing because I haven't seen a thunderstorm in a couple weeks.

I should/could...
*call Eric to see if he could work on my car over the weekend
*move my plants onto the porch so that they aren't getting over sunned
*continue on my spring cleaning, since I haven't in like a month :/ !!!
*work on some crafts
*read in one of my zines
*sit on the proch & enjoy the rain

I wanted to go down Main St & see if I could find Picasso Moon, but since it might rain, & since I have cramps, I don't feel much like doing all that...

We'll see what happens...

Sick-y

Ugggghh!! I feel sick-y!
Ya know that icky feeling you get when you're sick?! Yes, I feel sick-y :/

I woke up yesterday with my throat & chest hurting. It developped into the sick-y feeling as the day went on. So, after I'd gotten home from work, I napped from about 4:30-8:00, when I got up to watch the Sabres game with Nick. He made me soup :D So, we watched the Sabres kick ass in the 3rd period. Then we watched...I don't remember much of what happened after that, actually. I remember having some clam chowder. I remember him snuggling with me for a little while. I know I dozed off quite a few times; woke up for a few seconds once to see him playing video games. Then, at about 7am, he woke me up to go to bed with him. I told him to set the alarm for 10am. He seemed to have a hard time sleeping/breathing. I woke up around 9:30 & laid there til just before 10 so I could turn the alarm off & not wake him up with it. And I've been on the internet since...still feeling pretty sick-y, despite all the sleep I got.

I do feel a lil bit better, but not much. I've been coughing shit up, though, which is a good sign. I really think I have a minor sinus infection or something along those lines, based on what I hacked up when I woke this morning. And based on how Nick sounded when I woke up, he might be getting it too. :(

Now I have to go get ready for work, though I really don't feel like moving... :/

Yay! I'm no longer unemployed!!!

Well, first off, I almost didn't get the job thanks to that fat cunt KayLynne, who gave me a bad reference. I really wanna punch her in the face. For all the hard work I'd put in there, for her to give me bad reference...FUCK YOU, YOU FAT IGNORANT FUCKING CUNT!!! I could seriously cry over that, even though I know it's not worth it!! Luckily, the manager at Red Apple figured there was more to it than what KayLynne said (whatever that was). I guess Kay said she wouldn't hire me back -- which is good cuz I wouldn't wanna work for her fat lazy ass anyway. I am sooooo pissed... I better not ever see Kay again, because I WILL cuss her ass out.

FRAZZLED!!!

I'm so fucking frazzled, I can't even type right. It's 7:15am...I have to start at breakfast & a shower soon so I can go to: Red Apple to get gas, BonTon (if they're open) to exchange an old shirt for a new one, $ Tree (if they're open) to get some craft stuff and/or a gift bag & card for Maria's baby shower, (maybe) go to Wal Mart to get gift bag/card, and then head to Maria's parents' house to meet up for the baby shower. Then begins a long day of baby shower stuff, which would be a lot more exciting had I gotten any sleep. Got ready for bed at 5:30 cuz I'd gotten sleepy; laid in bed til a lil after 7 cuz I couldn't sleep - at first I couldn't sleep because I kept getting crafty ideas; then I couldn't get to sleep because Nick started snoring very very very very loudly. I don't think I would even be able to sleep in the living room, that's how loud he's been snoring for the past hour or so.

I'm not gonna be very pleasant or responsive today, lol :) :/